After dropping my oldest off at camp today I scooted over to Barnes and Noble to look for a new book (I was caught waiting a half hour for her to get out last week with no book, it was terrible!). My youngest was napping soundly in her stroller so I was able to peruse the sections I wanted to before having to hit the Thomas the Tank Engine table in the kid's section.
Of course I headed straight to the diet section. I was trying to find anything that promoted a natural, whole food way of eating/detoxing/weight loss. I picked up The Gut Flush and The Fat Flush by Ann Louise Gittleman. Interesting, but I'm not quite there yet. I might need to revisit them in time. Anyone out there try this system at all??? If so any feed back?? I am curious.
Anyway, then I move over to the self help section to look for books on compulsive over eating and binge eating disorder. I am somewhat in denial when it comes to this stuff. As a teen I went through the binge and purge deal. The purging tapered off but I'm not so sure I'd consider myself a true binger these days. I tend to do that mostly after I'm coming off some diet plan that didn't work. The binging kind of morphed into compulsive overeating such as what I did when my in-laws came over. I know that I do this, but never really considered it an "eating disorder" per say. No, I just considered it being fat and lazy. I've read enough books to know that I fit the profile of a food/sugar addict and a compulsive eater and realize it is a real problem, but still I just never classified myself as such. I guess that's what denial is all about. Yet somewhere deep down I continue to arm myself with information in this area in the event that one day I am able to make amends with myself and actually confront my issues.
Anyway, There were all the text book like books, the ones written by doctors and psychiatrists and such. Nothing particularly struck me in this section. Then I came across a narrative type book, Secrets of a Former Fat Girl. How to Drop Two, Four (or More!) Dress Sizes-and Find Yourself Along the Way. BINGO, just what I was looking for.
I'm past the quarter mark and not quite mid-life, but I've been going through some type of life crisis these days. That's a whole other post though. Anyway, losing weight and finding myself in a personal story written by a regular girl who went through this sounded perfect. So I paid my money and off I went to pick up my daughter from camp.
I was a half hour early again, but it was good because I wanted to start on my book and knew I would have no time for it once I got home with the kids. I almost started crying as I read through the Introduction. There were so many eerie parallels, it was as if she was writing this about me. In fact, she has written the book that I always dreamed of writing...a book based on some personal triumph. Even her style of writing is fun and how I'd want it to be. But most of all it spoke to me. My life, my thoughts and fears, my hopes and dreams.
So anyone out there looking for a good book on how one chick overcame her Fat Girl mentality and took control back over her life, I highly recommend this one even though I only read through the introduction! I have that much faith that the rest of it is going to be just as good. I'll let you all know....
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